Hello after a year

Does people still read blogs? lol I don't anymore except for Elite Daily and Timothy Tiah's and random interesting articles.

I wanted to used Dayre to jot down my footprints more conveniently but there's some technical problems with it I can't even sign in.

So what's been happening in this one year.

Well, same old thing, I've been busy with works and spending time with my family as much as I can. Good and bad things happened. Overall, I guess I failed as a person. At one point, I can assure that I'm a failure and I can't recall what good things I've done these years.

I've tried to improve myself but...I just can't handle it well.

This is one of the reason why I stopped blogging because I can't even see anything good about myself. There's nothing to do with confidence, it's the inner self.

I got weaker emotionally. I'm lost. I can't find the meaning of life. I fear a lot, it's not even me a few years back. I was brave, a lot braver, a lot more optimistic.

I'm gonna face a big change in my life, not sure if it would work well. I'm gonna focus all in my makeup career abroad. It's not as simple as I thought. I didn't have achievement after the wedding fair in 2015.

Every year I always tried to achieve something, I like the feeling of roller coaster, and super proud of myself when I success. Whatever that I'm trying to do it doesn't have to be a success, as the failure can teach me one lesson, at least I tried. Unfortunately, after 2015 I never really achieve something anymore. Life was just usual.

ok bye.